Mne strashno smotret klip Breaking Benjamin "So cold".

V proshlii raz mne posle nego vsu noch sni pro utoplennikov snilis.

Kogda ya zashla v ManRay, mne kazalos, chto eto son. Mne hotelos zaorat: "Skajite mne, chto ya ne splu!!!!!! Ved eto pravda, da??? Ya v ManRay!!!!!!!!!"

I eto bila pravda, i ya znala eto. I bila schastliva.

Nichego ne izmenilos s moego proshlogo raza.... Goti - vse, kak odin, i v to je vremya takie raznie, mrachnaya, no zavorajivaushyaya muzika, kartini na stenah, goticheskie kresla, neizmennaya kletka... Tolko ne bilo Ego...

A ya tak nadeyalas uvidet A....

Do etogo mne kazalos, chto ya ne pomnu, kak on viglyadit, ved u menya vsegda bila plohaya pamyat na vneshnost. No, pridya v ManRay, ya srazu vspomnila ego blestyashie glaza i oslepitelnuu ulibku. Ryadom s nim vse zvezdi gasnut!..

Gde on seichas???

Skorei vsego, uehal k sebe v Chicago. Uchit'sa. Ili razrabativat plani po provedeniu teraktov.

V proshlii raz, 7.7, kogda nastalo vremya uhodit, mne tak hotelos poproshatsa s nim... I ya perestupila cherez sebya, hotya mne bilo ochen slojno eto sdelat, i podoshla k nebolshoi kompanii, gde sidel on.

- Ya prishla poproshatsa. Mne pora idti. Kak, eshe raz, tebya zovut?

- A. (ne budu pisat polnostyu, pust eto ostanetsa moei malenkoi tainoi)

- Kak-kak?

- A. No ti eshe uslishish obo mne po televizoru.

- Pochemu?

- Terrorizm.

- Ladno... Ti klassnii paren.

Kogda ya vihodila iz kluba, ya obernulas. On smotrel na menya.

A ya tak i ne vzyala u nego e-mail...

V etot raz ya tak nadeyalas, chto on pridet... Prinimala drugih ludei za nego. No moi illuzii rasseivalis v odno mgnovenie...

Moe vnimanie srazu je privlek paren aziatskoi narujnosti. Seichas mne bilo absolutno pofigu na ego nazionalnost, a bud eto polgoda nazad, dopustim, ya bi ves vecher lomala golovu: kto on - yaponez ili kitaez? A mojet, koreez?.. U nego bili dlinnie nije plech volosi, a eshe on bil ochen nizenkogo rosta, tak chto esli bi ya reshila ego pozelovat, mne bi nepremenno prishlos naklonitsa. On bil odin, tochno takje, kak i ya, tolko izredka s kem-to zdorovalsya i komu-to ulibalsya, i hodil, zasunuv ruki v karmani.

Ne skaju, chtobi on bil ochen uj simpatichnim, no on bil gorazdo privlekatelnee vseh sobravshihsya tam predstavitelei mujskogo pola. Ne v obidu bud skazano - ya gotov lublu i uvajau, no v etot raz krasavzami Manay yavno ne blistal. Ura, znachit, ne proshla eshe moya lubov k predstavitelyam mongoloidnoi rasi!!!.. A k takomu, kak on, hotelos podoiti i zasosat momentalno. Ili je rezko podskochit vo vremya tanza i zapustit ruku k nemu v shtani, nabludaya za ego dergayushimsya lichikom. He!.. Bolshe ni na chto, imho, on ne godilsya. Po krainei mere, dlya menya.

Ah da, eshe im mojno bilo lubovatsa so storoni ^_______________^

A kogda on vishel na tanzpol, ya raskrila rot ot voshisheniya. On TAK tanzeval!!!.. Tak izyashno, tak graziozno!.. On dvigalsya, slovno koshka! Ya eshe nikogda ne videla, chtobi kto-nibud virajal sebya v tanze nastolko silno, kak on. Dvijeniya plavni, ne poddaushiesya nikakoi logike, otchasti sumburni. No eto viglyadelo tak seksualno!.. Ya ne svodila s nego glaz...

Togda ya vse bila gotova otdat, tolko bi on ne uhodil s tanzpola i prodoljal tanez svoei dushi. Seichas ya gotova otdat vse, chtobi eto uvidet eshe raz.

Snova prishlos uhodit ranshe, chem hotelos bi... Hotya nogi silno boleli i prosilis naruju iz tesnih botinok. Ya ponyala, chto ne uidu, esli ne podoidu k nemu i ne viraju svoego voshisheniya. Ya nashla ego odinoko stoyashim i rassmatrivaushim chto-to. Ya skazala emu (pri etom mne prishlos naklonitsa), chto mne ochen ponravilos, kak on tanzeval. V otvet on skazal "Thank you" i ochen milo i skromno ulibnulsya. Chert... Odna vesh portila, mojno skazat, vse. Mne hochetsa ob etom napisat, no kak-to ruka ne podnimaetsa. Neeee, takogo zasasivat ne hochetsa, podumala ya. A zatem vzyala rukzak i ushla.

Chto ya eshe mogu skazat?.. Mne obaldenno ponravilos. Konechno, emozii bilo menshe, chem v proshlii raz, ved, idya suda, ya uje znala, chto tut tvoritsa i chto menya jdet. A v proshlii raz eto bilo naipriyatneishim surprizom, ostavivshim neizgladimie vpechatleniya na vse leto!!!.. No vse ravno zdorovo, ne schitaya bolevshih nog. Nu ne umeyu ya hodit na bolshih kablukah, ne umeu!.. Ya voobshe udivlyaus, kak ya mogla protanzevat ves vecher i ni razu ne upast. ManRay - rai moei dushi. Tam ya pochemu-to ne chuvstvuu sebya odinoko, hotya vse goti, po suti, odinoki i hodyat sami po sebe. Tuda prihodyat takie, kak ya, i ya oshushau s nimi vnutrennee edinstvo. Tam mojno tanzevat tak, kak diktuet tebe tvoya dusha, i mojno ne boyatsa togo, chto kto-to budet na tebya ne tak smotret ili smeyatsa nad tem, kak ti tanzuesh. Ya nikogda eshe ne videla nastolko svobodnih i v to je vremya skovannih dvijenii v tanze. Dvijeniya gotov chem-to napominaut dvijeniya zombi. Neudivitelno - muzika, igrayushaya tam, zacharovivaet, ona slovno zombiruet.

Pochemu-to tam mne sovsem ne strashno podoiti k ponravivshemusya parnu. Tam ya eto delau s legkostyu. Konechno, perestupat cherez sebya vse ravno prihoditsa, ved privichka-to ostaetsa, no misl "Ah, ya emu ne ponravlus, takaya urodina" uje otpadaet.

A eshe tam stavili The Sisters of Mercy, pesnu "Lucretia My Reflection"... Lubyat oni Sisters of Mercy *________*

Na sleduushei nedele obyazatelno shoju eshe raz. Inache bit ne mojet. Mojno skazat, eto odna iz dvuh veshei, kotorie menya derjat zdes.

Tolko chto posmotrela klip Nickelback "Someday"... Proniknovenno... Blije k konzu chut ne proslezilas, no takogo neojidannogo konza ya ne ojidala!.. Umeut je ludi snimat klipi!..

Hoobastank - The same Direction



Whenever I step outside

Somebody claims to see the light

It seems to me that all of us have lost our patience

Cause everyone thinks they're right

And nobody thinks that there just might

Be more than one road to our final destination



But I'm not ever gonna know if I'm right or wrong

Cause we're all going in the same direction

And I'm not sure which way to go

Because all along, we've been going in the same direction



I'm tired of playing games

Of looking for someone else to blame

For all the holes in answers that are clearly showing

For something to fill the space

Was all of the time I spent a waste

Cause so many choices point the same way I was going



But I'm not ever gonna know if I'm right or wrong

Cause we're all going in the same direction

And I'm not sure which way to go

Because all along, we've been going in the same direction

Going in the same direction

Same direction (same direction)



So why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?

I don't wanna go and follow you just to end up like one of them

And why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?

I'd like to think that I can

Go my own way and meet you in the end

Go my own way and meet you in the end



I'm not ever gonna know if I'm right or wrong

Cause we're all going in the same direction

And I'm not sure which way to go

Because all along, we've been going in the same direction

Going in the same direction

Going in the same direction

Same direction (same direction)

URRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mne tolko chto pozvonili iz Maid Pro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oni priglasili menya zavtra na rabotu k 8:30!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jizn prekrasna!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya obojau tebya, Boston!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya obojau Lostprophets!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya obojau Hoobastank!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya obojau gotiku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya obojau Manray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Vi bi videli, kak ya tolko chto vizjala i nosilas po domu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pravda, posle Manray eto sdelat budet slojnee... Ved ya vernus pozdno nochyu!!!!! No nichego, seichas ya uverena, chto u menya vse poluchitsa!!!!!!

Tebe ploho?..

Ne stoit otrizat. Ya chuvstvuu eto.

Poimi moi chuvstva neskolko mesyazev nazad. Teper tebe takje ploho. I nevinosimo bolno.

Ya vsegda chuvsvuuu to, chto perejivaut ludi, nahodyas v tom je polojenii, v kakom nahodilas ya. Navernoe, ya instinktivno pitaus vzyat chast ih boli na sebya. No oni nikogda ne hotyat moei podderjki. Nikogda.

Slishish, ti??? Ya protyagivau tebe ruku pomoshi. Ya znau, tebe seichas nasrat na mou pomosh, ved na samom dele ya pomoch nichem i ne mogu. Maksimum, chto v moih silah - podderjat. Ne hochesh?.. A ladno, fig s toboi...

Tolko chto peresmatrivala klip "Last Summer" i zametila, chto u Ian'a serga v pravom uhe. Interesno, ona u nego edinstvennaya, ili u nego takje est i v levom?.. Mne bi pochemu-to ne hotelos, chtobi on okazalsya pedikom... Vpervie v jizni mne etogo ne hochetsa!..

Lostprophets - Last Summer



The Friday sun bears down again

As we drive with our friends

And on these longest days we spend

All the time trying to pretend

That our stories could be true

Our chance to be cool

The setting sun says the day is through

If only we knew...



And we all sit round here in our home town

Listen to the waves as they all crash down

And watch the fire as it slowly burns away

Glowing embers fly across the sky



Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer

The world passes by, in my summer, our last summer

The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other

Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer

The view from our last summer...



We trace the sun across the sky

And we laugh till we cry

Always so hard to say goodbye (goodbye)

And we all sit round here in our home town

It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss

The memories, I hope they'll never fade

Glowing embers fly across the sky



Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer

The world passes by in my summer, our last summer

The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other

Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer

The view from our last summer...



I would stop time to stay with you

I would stop time so we don't move

I would stop time

I would stop time

I would stop time to keep you...



...Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer

The world passes by in my summer, our last summer

The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other

Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer

Seichas ya idu ustraivatsa snachala v MaidPro, a potom - v Dunkin' Donuts.

Pojelaite mne udachi.

Esli menya vozmut - na radostyah zaidu v Hootenanny i kuplu sebe chto-nibud.

Esli ne vozmut - vse ravno zaidu i kuplu chto-nibud. Zavtra. Ved zavtra ManRay!!!!!!!

Segodnya ya proslushala polnostyu ves albom "Start Something", i mne vpervie ponravilsya ves albom zelikom, a ne tolko tri moi lubimie pesni.

Oni takie klassnie!!! A Ian Watkins - prosto prelest!!!

A eshe na moem diske ya davno zametila nadpis "Put this CD in your disc drive and log onto www.lostprophets.com to see music videos, behind-the-scene footage and more", no kak-to ne pridavala ei osobogo znacheniya. A segodnya Tatyana s Tanei uehali do pyatnizi, ya sebya chuvstvuu polnopravnoi hozyaikoi (v tom chisle i sidet v inete vse vremya), i ya reshila poprobovat - a vdrug poluchitsa? Mne udalos uvidet neskolko video moih lubimih Lostprophets!!!!!!! Obidno, chto tam ne bilo klipa na "Last Train Home", a tolko making!.. A eshe inogda bivaet - slushaesh pesnu, vrode ne obrashaesh na nee vnimaniya, a potom smotrish klip i nachinaesh vosprinimat ee s novoi storoni. Tak i proizoshlo s pesnei "Last summer". Klip ochen neobichnii, hot klipov takogo tipa ochen mnogo, no on snyat kak-to sovsem po-drugomu... I pesnya klassnaya!..

Seichas siju, baldeu ))))